Psalm 102: 1-2 (NIV): Hear my prayer, O Lord; let my cry for help come to you. Do not hide your face from me when I am in distress. Turn your ear to me; when I call, answer me quickly.
Psalm 62:5 (ESV): For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.
Lamentations 3:26 (ESV): It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
Silence from God. It was only a few years ago that I began to realize the extent and the enormity of people that wrestle with silence from God. Like many of you, I was inclined to believe that the struggle with silence from God was somehow unique to me. This “silence from God” was something that I could not remember being discussed or dealt with in my many years of attending church. There are many people, from all walks of life around the world that are in a constant struggle with what they perceive as silence from God. Sadly, many Christians are reluctant to admit that they wrestle with God’s silence from time to time.
In January of 2011, I decided to start writing a blog that was based on my daily walk with God. My intention when I started writing was to better understand and strengthen my daily walk with God. By putting my thoughts into words, I believed that I could grow and develop a stronger relationship with God and become more aware of how God was moving in my life. I figured that a few close friends and members of my church would occasionally read my blog, but I didn’t think that my writings would have an impact on very many people outside of my community.
Over the course of my life I have been made aware of the fact that many times God is working in the background of our lives, preparing us to accomplish things that we would have never thought possible. I would not consider myself a very smart person and that’s fine because scripture reminds me that God prefers to use ordinary people to carry out His mission so that all glory and praise will be given to God. 2 Corinthians 4:7: But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all surpassing power is from God and not from us. The “Gospel” is most certainly this “treasure” that Paul speaks of and the Holy Spirit can use each of us to carry it to the “ends of the earth.”
Now back to the story of my blog. In June of 2011 I wrote a devotional entitled, “When God is Silent.” This was written out of my own personal struggles with silence from God. I was trying to understand why God was not “communicating” with me as he had in the past. The response to this post was overwhelming. From this one post, God has used me to touch the lives of people across the United States, Canada, Belgium, England, Holland, many countries in Africa, and even a few people living in island nations from the Caribbean to the South Pacific. And these are just the people who have taken the time to write me. To this day, I continue to receive emails from believers and those who want to believe. And they are all to some extent, experiencing silence from God. Make no mistake that all of the glory belongs to God, I am just his instrument.
Over the last several years, as I have experienced silence from God in my own life, several doors have closed for me. It seems that what I desire to do in ministry and what God has called me to do is different. I almost wanted to write that my calling has changed but I believe that my path so far has been God’s perfect plan all along. A few days ago I experienced a sort of breakthrough in my battle with silence from God. I decided to pay attention to all of the signs that he has placed in my life and I recommitted myself to doing what God has called me to do.
This supposed “silence from God” has begun to fade after I decided to change some habits in my own life and in my walk with God. God has been attempting to communicate to me over the past several years but could not get through because I had been asking, praying, and even demanding that my will be done instead of God’s perfect will. Making the decision to let go of what I expect out of my calling and allowing God to lead me into a new direction has lifted a huge burden from my soul. God is calling me in a new and different direction, at least for now, and I have decided to be “still” and to know that God is God and He is in control of everything.
Psalm 46:10 (ESV): Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”